My gratitude to all those who understands...

Well, it has been 2 days since my heart was crushed, and I have yet recovered from that blow,
for this 2 days, most of my friends, decided to laugh at my mistake and hurt my feelings even more, Im not telling who, but I do appreciate some of them who understands my feeling and did not do anything to hurt my feelings even more but to comfort me instead, for instance, Huey Teck, thank you. Oh right, Hen Yu too, I guess, he tried to explain to SOMEONE that I was not the crazy stalker, thank you, but he bugged me about it and made me more annoyed by doing something else to me anyway, but no worries, I don't hold any grudge, at least not to you. Well, additionally, my friend, Kah Kit have grown up, I'm so proud of him, he did something I failed to do..... At least he didn't have to feel my kind of heart break and is ableto enjoy his prom night, I'm really happy for him. And guys, don't tease him eventhough he may show off, he deserves to privilege show off because it is rare for someone like him to do what he said he will do... I guess mostly everyone I know will enjoy prom night, maybe I can enjoy some alone time there. For the record, I do not have any regret for doing what I've done, because I know, maybe its not time for me yet.

Dignity or Memory?

I was force to sacrifice one of it, my dignity or to keep a not too bad memory. In order to protect my dignity, I kept my promised and carried out what I promised everyone and ruined my memories of my secondary school. The worst is.... I did not fail the way normal people will failed the task ended in a "comical" way...... Right now, I know one thing for sure.... Im on my own now....... there is no doubt.......... Well, I learnt my lesson, sometimes the truth hurts, its best to not know anything I guess..... Guess, I have to move along, but I don't feel like it, it hurts too much to move along. Have to admit, this may be the BOLDEST and the most EMBARASSING thing I have ever done... To make things worst, my friends laughed in my face and it felt dreadful. I know I have failed countless times, so many times that other people do not dare to rely on me on anything, well this may be one of the worst failure...... Am I always destined to fail? But I know one thing for sure, I will try to take the risk again, it may be painful, but I will not be a coward anymore, come on, world, reject me all you want, I will come back every single time!!!! Despite what I said.... I think the winter in my heart now is not showing any sign to give way to spring..... Conclusion is, life sucks, reality sucks, perhaps the only world that is great is the world reverse of our world....... Once again, Im going alone...............

Daicon 09

Well, went to Daicon today, it is held at Multimedia University. Went there with my aunt and my brother. When I reached there, I was kinda disappointed by the size of the exhibition. So I walked around the whole place and saw an exhibition of figurines, but do you know what is the awesome thing about the exhibition of the figurine? well, if you know me well, you will know why I think its awesome. ^.^ Oh right, I saw figurines from suzumiya haruhi no yuutsu, shakugan no shana, tora dora, code geasse, hayate no gotoku, fate stay night and more.... Then went to maid cafe with my aunt for breakfast(?). Yes, its MAID CAFE, isn't it awesome? You dont see a lot of those in this country you know? Well, it is run by Animax, so the waitress there are staff from Animax. At least the Maid Cafe was not as bad as how I expected, there is only pretty waitress, and their outfit are kinda nice, our school should have made their outfit the uniform for the girls, just joking, maybe not, nah, just joking. Okay, after that, I walked around again and noticed that there are more cosplayers now. Cool right? Took some picture too. Examples of cosplayers I saw are: Ichigo without his hairstyle, Cloud Strife, Cross Marion(D.grayman), Lenalee Lee(D.Grayman), Shana(Shakugan no Shana), Naruto Sage form(Naruto), some pretty girl wearing an awesome school uniform(something like the one from boys over flowers), Yat Hong( from Origin, I cosplayed as him) and more....... Bought a really awesome Katekyo Hitman Reborn folder. Oh right, my aunt won a ticket for Chihara Minori's concert from a free lucky draw, LUCKY!! But sadly, we didn't use it, as we have to go home and there is only one. I really wanna go and show off in front of Jian-Yong T.T , but nevermind, I still have the ticket, hehehe. Well, thats it, Im going to any anime convention available I can go. I obtained a lot of pics from this event, but..... I cant upload them now T.T Will upload them when I find out the problem...

Status

Preparing for: the stupid exam that requires me to get straight As for (not now, hoping to)

Task: Complete the physics folio tomorrow

Almost impossible but have to be done by this year task: Make my move

The person who made it hard for me to complete the impossible task: Hen Yu

Feeling: Really frustrated, stressed, depressed, tired, sick of myself, confused, random

Dreams: Same as before, can't tell anyone

Tired of: wasting time, slacking around, not knowing what to do, being an introvert,
being misunderstood

Thinking about: You, not you, you ,No, you, not the "you" who is reading this

Sickness: None

Hoping for:Hen Yu to clear my name, me being able to complete the task within the time limit,
what happened to me in the past wouldn't happen again.

Okay, this is my current status.....

Time is moving endlessly and people like me kept wasting it. My time as a secondary school student is about to end and I have not done something important yet. Eventhough I may blame someone else for it but I know deep down, its because of my own weakness. My life during my secondary school years is nice and all but it sucks overall. The funniest thing about most people is, when they don't need you or anything, they will forget your existence completely, worst of all, when your help is needed, they will ask for your help and expect you to help them. Perhaps this is the true nature of the worthless scums? Alas, who cares about what scums do, after all, they are nothing but mere a grain of sand in my room, will always be inferior when compared to me. After such a short but depressing school life, I have realised that in order to accomplish your dreams, do not be dependent on other people who will never show up when you needed them the most.

100 truths, anyone who cares is tagged

100 Truths =)Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end,choose 25 people to be tagged You have to tag the person who tagged you
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage:Water
2. Last phone call: Forgot
3. Last text message: Kar Loke
4. Last song you listened to: Forgot
5. Last time you cried: Urm can't remember
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: No way, not even once
7. Been cheated on: nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: never ever kissed anyone9. Lost someone special: No
10. Been depressed: A lot of times
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. blue
13. white
14. black
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: YUP
16. Fallen out of love: Yes
17. Laughed until you cried: No
18. Met someone who changed you: No
19. Found out who your true friends were: Nope, what are those?
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Nope, Im ignored as always
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope, and never, eww
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Haha, only a few
23. How many kids do you want to have: don't know
24. Do you have any pets: Nope
25. Do you want to change your name: Yes
27. What time did you wake up today: 6.50am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Graduating
30. Last time you saw your Mother: this morning
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: The stupidity that follows me around
32. What are you listening to right now? : My fan spinning
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : Nope, why?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: My life
36. Whats your real name: Low Yat Hong
37. Nicknames:handsome( just joking)
38. Relationship Status: Single T.T
39. Zodiac sign: Sagitaurus
40. Male or female?: Male
41. Elementary?: sjk(c)Damansara
42. High School?: SMKBU3
43. College?: I think Im not going. Hair colour: Black
45. Long or short: Short
46. Height: 182.5(really short)
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes
48: What do you like about yourself? : Nothing
49. Piercings: Never, will never do that
50. Tattoos: Nope, tattoos are for people who do not cherish their live
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty
FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: nope
53. First piercing: No
54. First best friend: My self
55. First sport you joined: basketball
56. First vacation: Langkawi
57. First pair of trainers: Urm, how can I remember?
RIGHT NOW:
58Doing?:Staring at my lap top??
59.Eating : Nothing
60. Drinking: Nothing
61. I'm about to: post this
62. Listening to: Didn't I answer this?
63. Waiting on: To finish this thing
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: Dunno
65. Get Married?: Dunno
66. Career?: Someone that can change the world
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: shorter
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: No, never ever kissed anyone(be realistic okay?)
77. Drank hard liquor: no way
78. Lost glasses/contacts:No, dont even have one
79. Sex on first date: Im pure and innocent
80. Broken someone's heart: yeah, mine
81. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: Yes, alot
84. Cried when someone died: No
85. Fallen for a friend?: Nope
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes
87. Miracles: Sometimes
88. Missing. =.=
89. Heaven: No
90. Santa Claus: No
91. Kiss on the first date: how would I know?
92. Angels: No
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Don't even have one
95. Did you sing today?: Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : Back to the time where I have a good chance to know her and also study better
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: None? Everyday is not worth it.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: More to hating it
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yes.