Thursday, July 19, 2012

It feels so foreign, looking at how other people are living their life, it's like I am looking at another world.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Let me tell you a story of someone's life,let's just call the someone Sam, please, ignore my grammar mistakes. To be clear, the story has nothing to do with anyone or anything or any events that happened in real life and is purely fictional. The story will be split into arcs.

Pre Kindergarten:
Sam was a very quiet kid, in fact, the kid was suspected to be a slow child as Sam haven't developed the ability to speak when all the kids around Sam's age can already speak. Because of this, other kids tend to isolate and ignore Sam.

Kindergarten:
Well, even though Sam learned to talk, Sam was still kind of slow. Sam was a troubled kid in the kindergarten, being the one that always cause trouble to the teacher or any adults around Sam. Sam may have made some "friends", but somehow it felt like the feeling wasn't mutual.

Primary:
As any kids around Sam's age will do, Sam made some friends, but, the ones Sam made for the first three years of primary school didn't last very long. As for the fourth year, Sam's family moved to another house because of some family problem. Somehow, Sam managed to stumble upon a boy, who is a neighbor and a classmate, that's the first time Sam made friends with someone who compares their results every time after an exam, thus, a rival is born. So for the last three years of Sam's primary school life, Sam's parents got divorced, Sam met Sam's first love(Sam regretted it years later) and Sam made a few more friends (some stayed while some drifted away in the future). In the last year of primary school life, Sam experienced the first major failure of Sam's life, the major exam that all the grade 6 students have to take. While Sam's friends were cheering for their results when their results were out, Sam was sulking in a corner, the friends did try to console Sam, but it was useless. After that, students were assigned to different school and Sam was sent to a different school from most of Sam friends and that's when they drifted apart.

Family:
To make things clear, Sam wasn't from a rich family, maybe Sam's father has some extra money to spend on Sam's toy in the beginning of Sam's life, but it changed. Also, after the divorce, Sam's father moved out few years later, as for Sam's mother, she became someone that Sam dislikes most of the time because of the mental torture given to Sam by Sam's mother most of the time.

Middle High:
Back to the story, the first year was the worst for Sam, being not used to the things taught in class, Sam was doing bad at studies despite being quite good in primary school. To make matters worst, Sam was a lazy student that doesn't pay attention in class. As for making friends, in the attempt of socializing with Sam's classmates, Sam upset all of them for they do not like Sam's attitude, thus, becoming the public enemy number one of Sam's class , being teased, being hated. That was one of the thing that made Sam what Sam is now, partially antisocial, being afraid of rejection by other people. Things got better in the second year, yea, there are still some haters in Sam's new class, but Sam still managed to make some friends that are still around currently. As for Sam's studies, Sam got better compared to the previous year but was still underachieving. Moving on to the third year, Sam was sent to another class with some of Sam's friend. Throughout the third year, Sam felt kind of left out as the new classmates Sam and friends met doesn't like Sam at all despite hanging out with Sam's friends, perhaps a bit of the annoying old Sam is still present within Sam. However, Sam's studies improved a lot more that year. At the end of the third years, Sam made the second failure of Sam's life, another major exam year 3 students have to take, the one that determines the type of class the students will go to.

High school:
Fortunately for Sam, Sam got the the type of class Sam wanted, Sam was sent to the class along with the friends from Sam's previous class. High school was much better for Sam, yes, Sam is left out sometimes, but Sam did manage to make more new friends that are still around. Studies were better for Sam now, however, due to the event in year 3, Sam's nature changed and it wasn't good enough. The last year of high school with   friends was the best year in Sam's life, for the first time ever, Sam managed to make friends with everyone in the class, everyone in the class was close as ever. Class trips, class party and all sorts of things like that was organised. So as all the happy things always do, the year ended extremely fast. The major exam for that last year was a failure, causing Sam to fail to get scholarships for college as it's the only way for Sam.

Pre U:
Unable to go college like the rest of Sam's friend, Sam stayed back at high school level for a Pre U course for poor students. However, the program doesn't start in the beginning of the year, instead, there was a few months wait for Sam. Sam tried working, but it didn't end well. So after months of waiting, Sam started the course at a new school. Unlike Sam's previous years, Sam started becoming more and more antisocial in school and that went on for another year and a half. There was a major exam in the last year of the course, it was the most important one among all the rest of the major exams Sam took. After graduating, Sam waited another few more months (similar to the ones Sam had before Pre U but more tormenting, courtesy of Sam's mother) only to find out that Sam did not get assigned to the university Sam wanted, instead to a university far away from home, the worst thing is, Sam was also forced to study a course Sam doesn't want. Sam was determined to try and change this, but it doesn't seem that possible at all. Here comes the funniest thing, Sam was told by Sam's mother that, she will not pay for Sam's living expenses as she can't afford it, and that Sam has to ask Sam's father, who is equally poor, for money, funny right??? Maybe this is.........


                                                            THE END


Should've practised writing a story a long time ago....






Sunday, July 15, 2012

Unless you are driven up to that point, you will never understand why would someone commit suicide.