What I dont understand.

1. Why can't everything be easy?
2. Why must most people oppose me when its futile?
3. Why can't I ever be the one?
4. Why the heck did I go up to my class when I knew it was a trap?
5. If everyone knows that the chances of getting H1N1 is high if you go travelling, why
is there still people travelling aroung for vacation?
6.What is the point of having someone who got H1N1 quarantined if the person's family can
still move around?
7. Why must there even be deadly diseases like H1N1?
8. Why is it that no matter how much I want something to happen, it will never happen?
9. Why is it that no matter how much I don't want something to happen, it will happen?
10. Why the heck am I even doing this?
11. Why must the world be full of fools?
12. Why must there be war?
13. Why is a natural magnet magnetic?( someone's question, im curious too)
14. Why must earth be the only planet with visible lifeform in the solar system?
15. Why can't everyone be educated to be practical in physics?
16. Why can't more people be interested in physics?
17. How come people tend to get jealous of other people?
18. Why can't all student be trained to understand the subject instead of memorizing it?
19. Why am I so cool? ( just joking, I said im joking, so no comment from anyone who read this,
okay?)
20. Why must we study History? Shouldn't we let go of the past?
21. Why can't my school have an indoor badminton court?
22. Why must love exist in our life?
23. Why must pretty faces save the day in the end in movies?
okay, thats all I dont understand, for now...... Yawn*

Failure.....

Wow, everything went horribly wrong with my results...... All of my results were horrible, Im just kind of sad to say that its actually my results. Guess what?? This time, my conditions were about the same as the time when I received my PMR results and UPSR results.......... If this carry on, I may even feel the same when I get my SPM results if this carries on. This is also like being rejected by someone, my results!!!!!! Failure............... I really want to taste victory for once, and have support from other people for once, but having support from other people may be quite impossible, but I will go with tasting victory. I will not let myself down, I promise!!!!!!!!!

Change of luck, maybe?

My luck wasn't really good most of the time, but today, I think something lucky happened to me, its cool and awesome..... Well I woke up and it as 1 sumthing, so I prepared myself and went to Mcdonalds to have my lunch, when I reached there, I reached for the door (not telling which one) and I was shocked by who I saw, it was .Hehe, Im not saying it. After today,I am convinced that my luck isn't all that bad, sometimes I can have a good encounter. But after seeing that person, eating there was kind of awkward, but I consider this to be my happies lunch time at macdonald up until now. Sadly, I did not greet the person..... And the person left...... Then, after lunch, I went centrepoint for a while and saw someone I see almost everyday in school, why? Becuse he is from my class, he is the one and the only, HEN YU!!!! And in case your wondering if he ruined my happy day, he didn't. But he did something to remind me about something I didn't really care until today, MY ADD MATH PROJECT. Hen Yu showed off his finished add math project by showing he that he binded the thing. No offence Hen Yu. But I really want to thank him for reminding me how important it was by showing me th project, now im off to do the one and only handwritten add math project I know solo if permitted by my teacher, the dead line is ths coming monday, and I didnt do anything yet, HAHAHA, but I think I can see things through....

Head splitting headache and other pains

Hate to complain this but I have to relief my pain here. ARGH!!!!!!!! My head hurts, im having migrane and I hate it so darn much. To make matters worst, the pain and suffering from the past appeared and is haunting me once again. These pain are really affecting my thoughts and emotions. And SOMEONE has to be the pain in the butt and trigger my past pain, thus reminding me of my past suffering and ordeals to be faced in the future. I know this may sound immature and Im actually sounding like a brat. But just for once, I want to share the blame with someone else other than just blaming myself to be weak nd useless. Okay, some of the tensions are released now. I am returning to my doubtful war zone now, hahahaha. P.S. If anyone is reading this, I am sorry that you have to see all this and I want to thank you for hearing me out. Bye, may we meet again.

Nothing

Having my life is just like being in an empty park at night ,
where I am surrounded by nothing and embraced by darkness.
This is where the only thing I hear is my breath,
the only one to talk to is myself.
After being in this park for such a long period,
I am tempted to give in to the darkness
and join the ranks of the forgotten,
Everyone and everything around me seemed to have left me,
sometimes, even my own soul leave me,
leaving behind nothing but a lifeless body.
Forgotten, ignored and misunderstood,
maybe thats how I was born to be like.
The world seemed to have crumbled before me,
the time around me seemed have stopped,
I am alone in this place where nothing besides me exist,
where time never flow.
In this place, this only one to rely on is myself,
the only guidance I receive is from my own soul,
and the light in my heart will be the only thing that will illuminate the darkness around me.
I will leave this wretched world and go somewhere that will accept my existence.
Where the cold Winter in me will stop and give way to the warm Spring.

1st holiday activity

Well, my first holiday activity was the alpha camp. Its actually a christian camp, but I went
anyway. It turns out that the camp is in a recreational centre or something like that, so you have swimming pool, INDOOR badminton court, basketball court, and there are also ping pong table.
On the 1st day, we were given a short briefing of the camp and were assigned to a mortal in a game called angel and mortal. You see, in this game, you are suppose to help your mortal without letting your mortal knowing your identity throughout the whole camp. We also have a counseling about boy girl relationship, it was really funny, they went to do a test on how corrupted the current generations are and the results are obvious: Very. All the campers are splitted into 4 groups, Lovely Apples, Peaceful Peaches, Joyful Jambu and Selfcontol Star fruit.
I was sent to Selfcontrol Starfruit, this is really rare, but I actually enjoyed being in this team, everyone was okay. At night, most of the form 5 had trouble sleeping. Why? Try sleeping in a dorm full with noisy guys talking loudly at night. Those guys are like hyper active, I am not talking about 1-3 people, it was like a whole gang of them....
The next day: we played games like telematches, obstacles courses and also tug of war. We did well as a team, but we lost to Lovely Apples, the team who got number 1 in the end by a few points (sob).
The last day: Everyone who slept in the dorm were awakened at 5 a.m by Zack, our camp commander. He pranked us by asking us to pick up our shoes after misplacing our shoes. Then, he forced us to do star jumps and run around the swimming pool once. That was a waste of 15 minutes.... But the form 3s, the noisy fellows held a grudge on him and decided throw him into the pool as a revenge( good one). After that, we packed up and went home. So thats how my 1st holiday activity ended. After this camp, I found out that I did badly in chemistry........ Haiz... I also learnt to play two new games to me, captain ball and mafia, those two games were fun. Thats all for today....