Its taking forever.......

Right now, I hope that the results will come soon. It funny that the only thing that I am looking forward to is the thing that will hurt me the most. Now I hope these few years will pass swiftly so I wouldn't have to feel the depression and finally leave. I really hate the fact that I am stuck here with nothing interesting to entertain me. When will the results come out????? I want this boredom to end sooner. I really hate this place..... Sadly, my only ticket away from this shithole is my STPM... How ridiculous, I have to take another subject I know I will hate for another 1 and a half year while other people are studying at college... I don't see Einstein having this problem. =.= I really hope this disgusting ordeal I will go through will pay off.... Come to think of it, must I really ace General Paper to get a FULL scholarship? My guess is yes, but why?????? I don't even think that I need to know anything about that in the future. If so, why can't I learn it in english?????? Heck, if everything I learn is in english, I wouldn't be going Form 6 anymore.................. In fact, I will not be as depressed as I am right now. Darn it......

Bored of being bored.

As usual, valentines day is just another depressing day..... The worst thing about this year's valentines day is, its a sunday andS its also the first day of chinese new year, so I can't be in a quite place alone. Everywhere is just so A darn noisy. Also, since I wouldn't be reminded of that person since I can't see that person, today V is just sooo darn boring. I am so bored right now that I am bored of being bored. So being so bored E, I had no choice but to complain about my boredom. Well, I hope Jian-Yong will entertain ME by making a move this year. I am guessing most normal people must've already did something FoR their someOne special. I aM so bored, so bored, so bored. Also, there are a few things that are making me frustrated. Firstly, I don't want to go form 6..... I hate the general paper. Then I don't want to go to a local university, it sucks. Lastly, my SPM results are coming out, I'm afraid that the same thing that happened when I was 15 will happen again. I want to change MY LIFE forever, but I just don't know how......................... Why must everything be so annoying!?

New words

All of these are copyrighted.

Coolawesome- Really awesome

Now, what are you called if you are hot and cool at the same time? At this time, you should use this word to describe yourself.

Hool= Hot+Cool

Using this word, another new word is also created,

Hoolawesome- Super hot and awesome!!!!

I will think about other words some other time.

The truth is..... who cares?

Day by day, I am getting more and more depressed. Nothing can ease my sorrows and no one can help me at all. The boredom I have right now is making my condition worst. Everything I see and everything I think of will also sadden me more. Is there nothing that can actually help? Of course, this is like asking a wall what to do. I really hope something interesting will finally happen in my life or someone special will finally appear in my life, but obviously, the chances of those stuff happening is quite little.

More depressions......

Its January 23rd year 2010. Current achievements? None. I am currently not studying at all because of my unluckiness and uselessness..... Maybe I should just accept the fact that I am still once again tied to this place. To make matters worst, all I could ever remember now would be all my past failures and nothing else. I even blew my one and only chance to escape from this depressing life of mine. I really don't understand why everyone will be complaining about the assignments from college or migrating overseas or something like that. Aren't they aware that there are people like me who wants that to happen to us but don't even have a chance. As if being alone having nothing to do isn't depressing enough, once again, I have to meet retards again. Whats with me and meeting people who don't even deserve knowing my name!? I seem to always meet those people in my life. Nothing interesting ever happen in my life, and sometimes, just when I was motivated to do something, I will just get hit hard in the face and be disappointed again. It seems like my only companion through all this sorrow is myself, this is because only me will understand the pain. I am really fed up of this world, sometimes, I really wonder if there are other worlds out there, why am I stuck here? Anyway, who care about all of this? No one was living my life.

Tar Starr Niht

Yesterday was a day long awaited by form5s through out the whole year, nope, its not the last day of school but its prom. Me, marcus, yong ken and jian-yong met up together to hang out before the prom while wearing our promwear. It felt weird and I think lots of people were looking at us. We also went and watch zombieland and it was scary and funny. After the movie, we prepared ourselves and went to the prom venue.Everyone looked different and some girls even over make up.... Not telling who were they anyway. Some guys dressed up like waiters and its kinda cool. And some guys even dressed up like a boss. After talking to teng shuin(is that how you spell his name?) we agreed on one thing, hahaha. After waiting for a long time(we had to wait while they were preparing the ballroom), we are finally allowed to go into the ballroom. But to my dismay, we have to go through some events before eating, nooooooooooo. But the events were awesome, yu beng and wei xin really rocked when they say they don't. Man, these guys sure are awesome. Finally, we can eat after that. I took lots of food and devoured them. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I saw some scums when I was getting the desserts, they are still acting like the scums they are even during such formal(?) event. After that we had a class clown award, won by Chong Yan , best dressed award, winner of the female category was I can't remember as they weren't sporting enough and winner of the male award was Wan Kong. There was also the best couple award but the challenges they went through was kinda boring though,the winners were Woei Juan and wan ting, personally, I think its either them or Dao Han and Yong Ern. Then the prom King was Chris Chua and prom queen was Rowena Hong. I think I got the order of the events mixed up but I do remember the perfomance by Chee Hong and Felicia, they were awesome singers. We had a slow dance session after announcing the prom king and queen, it was fun for the couples but kinda saddening for people like me.... Chong Yan and Tracy went to sing after that with a band and that was when I realised Chong Yan can really sing. After that, they played some fast song and almost everyone went crazy and danced on the open dancefloor while I relaxing at my sit. The prom ended at 11-12, not sure about the time and everyone took picture with anyone they want and people began leaving. I really hope I can attend a prom like this in the future, this will be awesome.

Today

For the 1st time, I get to celebrate my birthday with my friends. It was awesome by the way. We went to play basketball at the community hall, after playing it, we(me, my bro and jian-yong) went and play Pokemon at a nearby table while waiting for marcus, yu beng and chia kuui. About 30 minutes later, they came back from yi han's house and we walked to 1u. We had our lunch(?) at wong kok char chan teng and ordered our food. Jian-yong did a really coolawesome thing, he ordered two plate of main course, ain't that awesome? Oh yeah, the connection at the restaurant was awesome, we can finally go into the global trade system in pokemon using the wifi system to trade pokemon with players all around the globe. But most of the requests for the pokemons used to trade for the pokemons the players offered are outrageous. Imagine, a lv9 sandslash? Is that even possible??? Anyway, we met luke there too and he gave me a present, how cool is that? We(people other than me/my bro) went to play bowling and met kar loke and chia kuui there, they bought presents as well. :) Oh yeah, while they were playing bowling, those who weren't playing bowling went and walk around and my, the walking around was awesome!!!!!!! I don't think it is necessary to tell why I think it was awesome though. We watch 2o12 after that and it was awesome. According to marcus and my bro, jian-yong was vibrating like a handphone set to silent mode due to excitement during the movie, lolz. The show was good but its not really that realistic, how can a simple family survive thaaaat long? They must be really lucky to survive till the end. After the movies, we hung out for a while and we started to leave one by one. My mom brought me to tony rhomas(thats how you spell it right?) for dinner, after that, I was forced to take an embarassing picture in a contest to see who has the cutest post to get a ticket to any show available at cineplex, I am glad I don't really look that gay compared to other contestants though. After that, I went home and started going online and..........