N-Nihon
H-Hikkikomori
K-Kyokai
After months of being imprisoned at home and not being able to study yet, I found out that I don't socialise that much anymore(not that I do it that much before this). I am indeed being something like a hikkikomori, just that I am not afraid of going out of my house. Well, being a part hikkikomori isn't fun at all, in fact, its reaally boring. I think alot during my alone time too, like why am I stuck here, or will this be permanent for me. Sometimes, I even made myself feel much more lonely. Maybe that is how a hikkikomori will feel. Right now, all I want is just to study the subjects I like, its just that simple.... But because of me being really useless, I am forced to wait for the results eventhough I know that it will end badly. Sometimes, I really wish I could abandon this life and start a new life somewhere else, being a different me, maybe things will turn out better. Unfortunately, I have to wait for a long period of time for me to be able to do that. After all these stuff I just said, I just remembered, I am still a part hikkikomori, stuck here, feeling really bored and lonely.... Lets just hope I will not experience this kind of life in the future, I can't believe I am saying this, but I really miss interacting with interesting people. Another thing I learned while being a part hikkikomori is, make sure you do something other than playing videogames or watching tv when you are bored, do something educational or something that requires you to move around. Playing videogames for the whole day will just make you feel that you wasted your whole day.... (I really miss school.......)
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