What if?

What if I am not myself in the first place, what will happen?
What if I didn't go smk bu3 in the first place, will everything be better or worst?
What if I didn't didn't meet everyone at all, will stuff ever be different?
What if I leave this place,will that influence anything?
What if my luck was better, will I be happier?
What if I can change every single thing in my life, will it really be better for me?
What if I never existed in this world but only in other worlds?
What if I am an extrovert instead of an introvert?
What if I was able to do it in the past?
What if I found that person?
What if I was more confident?
What if I studied more in the past?
What if I did not miss out so much all the time?
What if I wasn't picked on all the time?
I hope someday, I will be able to answer those question myself.