What if?

What if I am not myself in the first place, what will happen?
What if I didn't go smk bu3 in the first place, will everything be better or worst?
What if I didn't didn't meet everyone at all, will stuff ever be different?
What if I leave this place,will that influence anything?
What if my luck was better, will I be happier?
What if I can change every single thing in my life, will it really be better for me?
What if I never existed in this world but only in other worlds?
What if I am an extrovert instead of an introvert?
What if I was able to do it in the past?
What if I found that person?
What if I was more confident?
What if I studied more in the past?
What if I did not miss out so much all the time?
What if I wasn't picked on all the time?
I hope someday, I will be able to answer those question myself.

Tong Hua (Chuaaaaaaaaan ver) pin yin

Okaay, some of the lyrics may not make sense,this is just a joke, I repeat, just a joke!!!! Here goes:

Wo wang le duo jiu, jai mei you chuan le,
Dan shi wo ding bu sun le.
Wo hai ji de wo, sang chi juo de shi, na shi, wo
bi jiao chuaaaan.
Wo chuan je dui ni suo, ni si bu ke neng ying wo de,
Ni yao ying, jiu deng jiu jiu la.
Wo dang shi jen de chuan wo hai shi jen de chuan,
Wo sien jai yao juo jui chuan deeee

Chorus:
Wo bu yuan gei ni liang kuai chien,
ying wei ni sang chi ju jue wo,
wo sien jai yi jing gen bie ren gao gei ler,
Dan ching ni ji de wo sien jai shi ge hen chuan de gay,
suo yiiii, wo bu ai ni le....

Wo hai ji de na shi,
ni ju jie wo de yuan ying si,
wo jen de shi hen chuan,
dang wo thing jian na ju hua,
Wo ding bu sun le,
Ying wei chuan shi MY THING

Chorus:

Wo hai jue de, ni ying gai,
ACCEPT wo de liang kuai chien,
rang hou wo jiu ke yi chuan gei bie ren kan,
dan shi ni chue reject wo gei ni naaaaa liang kuai chien,
suo yi wo sien jai ling yuan bien gei.

Wo yao bien chen,
i ge you DESPO you chuan de GAY,
chang kai shuang sou,
jua ge ren THEN MOLEST tha,
Ni yao xiang xing,
WITHOUT ni wo hui despo dao je yang,
suo yiii PLEASE ACCEPT MY liang kuai chien. X2

Cing ni IGNORE ME BEING CHUAN.......


Well this is it, you all know pretty well who should be the one singing this song right, I guess not.... Anyway, if you do know, please don't tell that person. I did this just for fun. I do not own the song anyway, okay?

Effects

Hmmmm, 1 more month till SPM. Eventhough I am kinda disgusted by this, but I gotta admit, my life literally depends on it. It will decide if I can carry on with achieving my dream. Well, its a live or die situation now, sheesh.
Lets look at the effects when I succeed or fail.

If I succeed:
-I can finally prove everyone wrong!!!
- I will be closer to my dreams
- I will be able to meet better competitors
- I get make a statement
- I will not suffer......

If I do fail:
- Emo for years
- fail to achieve my dreams
- Will be irratated my whole life
- Everyone will be right for looking down on me

For me, my choice is made, I choose to....................... That is decided!!!!!!!!

Graduation

Well, it has been a long time since I blogged, and its kinda dusty now.... Lolz, how can something in the internet get dusty? Well its a figure of speech. Wow, I answered myself. Moving on, my graduation was yesterday and almost everyone I know said that it was an unofficial graduation as we did not really end our school year yet, funny right? I think this is because, most probably, after SPM, everyone will be busy doing their stuff. You know? Going on a vacation and stuff like that. Now, the graduation was kinda short and you can see the students wearing formal wear, it seemed like we are attending some kinda party.After some looooooooooooooooooooooong speeches by our one and only Puan Azizah and a guy I forgot his name, I will just call him proffesor chocolate(luke and I agreed that his name sounded like chocolate) and waiting for so darn loong, we were asked to go on stage to receive our album(?).Something really funny happened when I went on stage, my hands were sweaty and cold and a VIP on the stage shook hands with me..... The graduation can be called a success I guess, the perfomances were okay except for one, that perfomance was AWESOME, owning other performance, but in order to not hurt other performer's feeling, I will not say which performance was the one that owned other performances (hints: Iwas playing kar loke's PSP at some point during the performances). As for the "feast" I was looking forward to, they gave us chicken rice, a cute little(tiny) cupcake and a watermelon.....T^T I was hoping that the "feast" was really a feast...... But what disappoints me the most is that I didn't take much pictures... And the worst is, I didn't get to take a picture with someone....... But what I managed to do is to take a really awesome picture, urm hope you don't mind guys. I was just happy for my lucky friend. Finally.......

Awesome right, as for chie yang, lee hang was also in the picture by accident

So am I ending this now, and I hope I too will be able to have the luck to do something like that in the future.........