Its really hard to find someone who is intelligent and creative at the same time, someone who majors in lets say physics yet he/she is interested in things that most of his/her peer find childish. I would like to meet someone like that.

Its approaching!!!!

19 more days!!!! I am worried because I get distracted all the time. Every single time I try to study, I will end up doing something else 5 minutes later, and then..... it will take me hours to realize that I got sidetracked...

Please help... I am bored...................... FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Contradictions

I spot various contradictions in my life, how I feel, how I live, how everything is for me, to put it simple, my very existence is a contradiction. This happens when you can't make decisions firmly.

Cornered

Zzzz..... After reading the timetable for STPM, I am starting to feel the tension. Which is good, I haven't felt this for a long time.... So I gotta study everyday now, hope I don't slack of like I used to. I went through all this crap just  to do well in STPM, I can't just give up like this. I will study to the EXTREME!!!!!

Better than everything else.

Well, my results for the first term was crappy. But I ensure everyone, I will not get this kinda result for the STPM, I will score a GPA of 4.0. Yes, straight As, and not just any As, the As of the finest quality. I know I have never accomplished something like that in the past, but I have to push myself to the very limit. I don't have any other choice now, my pride is at stake. Oh yea, and I am going to participate in 3 quizzes, Physics, Chemistry, and Math, I have to do well in those three quizzes too. So, here it is. I WILL GET A GPA OF 4.0 FOR STPM THIS YEAR!!!!!

Reality!?

I am so sick of the world... All the rules, everyone trying control people, telling people what to do, what not to do. And I find the world a boring place after trying to visualize what lies ahead, I graduate, then I go to another university, what then? Will anything change? And looking back into the past made me realized one thing, I wasted a lot of time. While people are doing things that can only be done when they are young, I was just sitting around doing nothing. And again, the world.. Would it be fun if you can just interact with other people easily just like in the games? Or go on an adventure like the ones in games? The perfect world, the wonderful world where you will never feel lonely, where you will never feel vulnerable, where no one will annoy you, where no one will get in your way. Gosh, wouldn't it be nice if that is the reality?

Combo

ARGH!!! When I think about shutting down my laptop, I think about my procrastination, then when I think about that, I will think about my research, which I didn't touch yet, then when I think of that, I will think about my studies, then when I think of it, I will think of school, then when I think of school, I will think about crap(metaphorically speaking, mind you), then this is where everything starts to be annoying, I will think about what might happen if I failed the exams, then I will start thinking about my past failures, then I will think about the stuff that happens in my life that disgusts me and annoys me(around 98% of the stuff that happened), then I will think about the chances of it happening to me again, then I will hope for a miracle to happen, only to shun it off as the chances of that happening will be around 0.000000001%(roughly), then I will get all depressed again, then I will turn of the laptop, lie down on my bed, being depressed, escaping into the game world where everything goes my way and then I sleep when I am tired. This is basically how I procrastinate. Note: The part about shutting down the laptop may change.

Well, I spent these few days playing Runefactory 3, it was fun. Storyline, gameplay and graphics are very nice. What matters the most was.. It helped me see the world from a different perspective, perhaps I will be the one who will understand what I meant.