Summary of 2010

The year is almost ending. When I look back, I can see that this whole year was merely nonsense. I spent the first half of the year being extremely desperate to go school. After that, when I started school, I realised that the thing I've always wanted since the starting of this year is a bunch of bullshit. My grades are failing, the school sucks(I am telling you, I hate it there!). The only good thing that ever happened to me was the end of the year holidays.... I just can't believe it, one year was wasted just like that. Well, guess what? The bunch of bullshit I mentioned earlier? It has a part 2, but it only gets worst... I have to suffer another year of bullshit+a bonus at the end of the year! This time.... I really have to do something about my failing grades and not put my sufferings to waste. I sure missed the good old days...

You know, I think I have problem communicating with other people. This has gone from bad to worse since form 1. I mean when people are bored, they chat with their friends, but me, I can't seem to know what to talk about, additionally, I find myself quite boring... I also have another problem, I always end up at places I don't like, end up with people I don't like nowadays, maybe I took the everyone from last time for granted, eventhough I used get left out. Geez.... The worst is, why am I letting this get in my head!? I've always thought that by being alone, studies will be okay, but now, I realised one thing, its not easy being all alone, there is no one, absolutely NO ONE, who could help you when you encounter some problems in your studies. Or there are also times when you need someone to motivate you to study and improve yourself, this will also be a problem, why? Because no one can help. Argh, I wish there is a way to solve this.